I’ve been feeling quite depressed lately, I’m always one to just get up and do it, regardless of what situation I’m put in. I often feel overwhelmed but I’m hoping that things will work out. The thing that most people don’t understand about me, is that I’m clinically depressed, I’ve been on medication and it made it worse, I’ve been to psychologists and I felt like it was just money down the toilet, because for me, although talking may relieve my stomach from possible ulcers, it does not actually lessen the load. No matter who helps me, I’m still the one having to deal with it, on top of my depression, which is a full time job.
Not to mention, everyone else is dealing with their own stuff, how can you offload on others when they have a throng of their own problems?
So I go outside and sit on the junglegym and let the cool night air dry my tears as I look up into Nut and feel Hekate and Anpu by my side.
And I sew away my tears and put them into the thread, as each stitch gets pushed through. I take my coffee and slug it down, as Desperate Housewives plays on the laptop… Those are problems I can deal with.
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