As we come to the end of summer it is a time we often reflect on the endings of things. As every ending is in itself a beginning, we also look to the beginnings of things. We look back at where we started, our roots, and we trace the lines and spirals and dead-ends and see where we are now. Where have we left our marks? What are we leaving behind, and letting go of?
Very physically, I gather up all of the old things that no longer serve me, this includes books, clothes, old cans of food etc, and I begin to remove them from my life. This is an incredibly difficult thing for me to do. Surprisingly, for someone who is concerned greatly with spirituality, I have accumulated a rather large amount of junk. It is around this time of year that I start this process of cleaning and it will continue on until the winter Solstice.
There is a psychic energy that every physical thing contains. Every object occupies not only physical space, but mental and emotional space. This is why cleaning, and getting rid of junk is a very cathartic experience. When we clear away all the muck and grime, we are also opening up space in our lives for new growth.
At this time of year it is normal to feel a deep sense of sorrow for those we have lost, but the sorrow reminds us that we care, that the bonds are still there. Sorrow is one of the most precious emotions that we have…When we let go and surrender to sorrow and the grieving process, for whoever or whatever we may be grieving, we are allowing ourselves to move into a space of healing and growth.
Sorrow can open up doorways to creativity, letting out every raw emotion that comes with it. When I do not allow myself to feel, I also struggle to create. I cannot write, draw, paint or even lose myself in ritual. It is in Surrendering to the process and every emotion that I am able to begin at the ending instead of being bogged down and stuck in stagnant, psychically toxic water.
Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. It shakes the yellow leaves from the bough of your heart, so that fresh, green leaves can grow in their place. It pulls up the rotten roots, so that new roots hidden beneath have room to grow. Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place. ~ Rumi